When I hear people categorise depression as "sadness" it just makes me realise how little they actually know about the condition. Depression is NOT sadness. Instead, it's more like a cloak of inability. It suffocates your ability to do or think anything except numbness. It causes you to function in a dream-like state. It clouds your thoughts and shuts off your filter system. It overtakes you. It paralyses you. But it is not sadness.
Imagine you are swimming in a pool with someone, when suddenly they are keeping you pushed under the water whilst you struggle to hold your breath any longer. Your mind begins racing, you begin to freak out- but are unable to do anything as someone else's strength is keeping you under. That is what depression feels like. You are not in control of it, and it is as if something else is your puppet master. It comes out of nowhere. A person suffering from depression may have just had an amazing day (even the best day of their life) when suddenly this clouding sensation overtakes their brain. They may put on a mask and appear to be continuing to have an amazing day. Still laughing, but inside they can't wait to just go home and be alone. Once arriving home they may spend hours upon hours just laying/sitting in one place and not moving. To them, not much time has passed. No thoughts have even occurred in their mind. All they feel is nothing. Suddenly all their motivation and energy has disappeared. It's as if the little moment of happiness had to be exchanged for this. This feeling may last a few minutes, to even several days (or weeks.)
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