When I hear people categorise depression as "sadness" it just makes me realise how little they actually know about the condition. Depression is NOT sadness. Instead, it's more like a cloak of inability. It suffocates your ability to do or think anything except numbness. It causes you to function in a dream-like state. It clouds your thoughts and shuts off your filter system. It overtakes you. It paralyses you. But it is not sadness.
Imagine you are swimming in a pool with someone, when suddenly they are keeping you pushed under the water whilst you struggle to hold your breath any longer. Your mind begins racing, you begin to freak out- but are unable to do anything as someone else's strength is keeping you under. That is what depression feels like. You are not in control of it, and it is as if something else is your puppet master. It comes out of nowhere. A person suffering from depression may have just had an amazing day (even the best day of their life) when suddenly this clouding sensation overtakes their brain. They may put on a mask and appear to be continuing to have an amazing day. Still laughing, but inside they can't wait to just go home and be alone. Once arriving home they may spend hours upon hours just laying/sitting in one place and not moving. To them, not much time has passed. No thoughts have even occurred in their mind. All they feel is nothing. Suddenly all their motivation and energy has disappeared. It's as if the little moment of happiness had to be exchanged for this. This feeling may last a few minutes, to even several days (or weeks.)
The Perfect Valentines Gift!
Personally, I have never gotten too involved in Valentines Day. I've never understood why you must wait until the specific date of February 14th to let someone know just how you feel for them. I'm a firm believer that if you have feelings, you should let them be known. Imagine how many potential relationships don't happen because one individual is waiting for the "perfect time" to open up. Let's be real, timing is never perfect. Life happens. So stop allowing the excuse of perfect moments ruin things for you. On the other side of the spectrum- those that are already in a relationship: once again, why wait until Feb 14th to surprise your other? If you seriously wait 356 days just to write a cute note confessing how you feel, or to buy a box of chocolates, you need a boot up the derriere. Not only are you out of touch with your emotions, but shops are also very wise to people like you. Which is why every single box of chocolates, every rose, everything which screams "romance" (as said by the mass producers) increases its cost to something drastic like $25 for a card.
The Perfect Date Night!
You’ve had this date booked for over a week now. You’ve been counting down the days, then hours until it’s here. Finally, the night has arrived. It is Date Night! I don’t mean your typical: two-person date night. No. I’m talking about the DN that is even more exciting (and important) than that. I’m talking about your solo night to yourself. I can’t stress enough just how important it is to spend time alone. To spoil yourself completely. Some people couldn’t think of anything worse than spending half a night alone- let alone a whole, but I will always look forward to my DN with myself. I believe it’s one of the healthiest things: being able to be by yourself- and to enjoy it. If you can’t handle you- how can anyone else?
Let me tell you exactly how my perfect DN goes and then maybe you too will learn to love this night almost as much as a typical one.
3,2,1 GOAL!
New Years has come and gone, just as the many resolutions that
were destined to fail within the 72 hours of being professed have. “I’ll sign up to the gym and go every
single day!” That one failed before the hangover even had time to set in on
the 1st. “I’m going to quit my job and
do the one thing I’m passionate about most!” Had you even dipped a toe into
the thing that you're most passionate about prior to this sweeping declaration? If
not, I can assure you, quitting a job and diving into an empty pool full of
concrete is not a good idea. Let’s
face it: New Years is the guaranteed date many promises we continuously make to
ourselves are created- only to be broken. Why are we okay with creating a
tradition in letting ourselves down? Usually, you would feel bad in letting a
close friend down over a small matter, so why do we continuously not even think
twice about religiously making a giant resolution (we will probably give up on)
each and every year? Why is “New Year,
New You” such an important thing? I can answer that question for you right
now: It’s not! Instead I’ve come up with an alternative to the tradition of
your New Years broken promise to yourself. That being: The Weekly Goal.
Before You Get Mad
There is probably one main thing you want to do when someone makes you angry: and that is not 'think rationally.' A nice alternative to that option is to say whatever it is that's going through your mind at that current moment in time. Trust me, that is not the best decision. People often say things they later regret when they spit whatever venom is currently in their head. Words can never be taken back. That is one lesson you will learn in life: either the hard way, or by reading this and realising the truth to that statement. In this post I have come up with 5 things you must always ask yourself before you get mad.
Am I dating a Human or an Onion?
"I spent most of my nights crying and wondering why I just wasn’t enough. I refused to let go. Instead: I allowed myself to constantly be beaten, constantly shrunk. Until finally, I was a shadow of whom I once was. I was, putting it bluntly, pathetic."
If you had snooped in my room and managed to find my journal- that is a snippet of an entry you would've come across quite some time ago now. I was the fool who "fell for love." Just reading back on that now makes me angry at myself. To know that I allowed someone else to warp my whole perception of myself, and even change who I was, was insane. Reality is though- I'm far from the only person in the world to have done this to themselves.
Today I am happy to say I am no longer a shadow of me. I will never allow my self value to be defined by others, nor will I ever stay around someone who is more poison than passion again. That relationship in general, wasn't the worst. The person I was with was kind (at times) and a great cheerleader to me. It's just certain things stood out more than the positives and therefore made me question myself and slowly change who I was to try make them happier. That was mistake number one.
I am going to list a few things you should never have to feel/think/experience if you are in a Healthy relationship.
If you had snooped in my room and managed to find my journal- that is a snippet of an entry you would've come across quite some time ago now. I was the fool who "fell for love." Just reading back on that now makes me angry at myself. To know that I allowed someone else to warp my whole perception of myself, and even change who I was, was insane. Reality is though- I'm far from the only person in the world to have done this to themselves.
Today I am happy to say I am no longer a shadow of me. I will never allow my self value to be defined by others, nor will I ever stay around someone who is more poison than passion again. That relationship in general, wasn't the worst. The person I was with was kind (at times) and a great cheerleader to me. It's just certain things stood out more than the positives and therefore made me question myself and slowly change who I was to try make them happier. That was mistake number one.
I am going to list a few things you should never have to feel/think/experience if you are in a Healthy relationship.
The Change of McHolme
As many of you have probably realised, for the last month or so- my Blog has been Dead. I mean Dead to the point there was almost a Funeral held for it. Flowers and all (pink lilies please.)
Today I have some exciting news for you all though, and that is- I AM BACK!
But, in saying that I am not back as I was before. My Blog is being completely revamped. I no longer am devoting this Blog 100% to Beauty. That is no longer all I want this Blog to be about. If you are subscribed to my YouTube channel, or follow me on Insta, I feel you may have already started gathering this.
I know in the past my Blog has very much so been Beauty Related and I know this is going to be a massive change- one I am unsure how it will be taken. But I have a lot more to talk about than just Beauty. If anything Beauty is now near the bottom of my list of Brain Farts. Im sure on the odd occasion I will chuck in a Beauty Related post, but from now on you can consider this an "It's My life" type of Blog.
Starting today I plan to make my Blog very different. I plan to make Posts directed at: brutally honest advice, entertaining stories on my life (my occasional Paris Hilton brain) and in general keeping you updated in my life journey (who I will eventually become) and so much more.
I'm planing on doing all this whilst keeping my own privacy. After all- once the mystery is gone you have nothing. You can consider this an edited version of my own private diary.
I hope you can enjoy the change I'm bringing and can therefore relate even more with me.
Until Next time,
xox
Today I have some exciting news for you all though, and that is- I AM BACK!
But, in saying that I am not back as I was before. My Blog is being completely revamped. I no longer am devoting this Blog 100% to Beauty. That is no longer all I want this Blog to be about. If you are subscribed to my YouTube channel, or follow me on Insta, I feel you may have already started gathering this.
I know in the past my Blog has very much so been Beauty Related and I know this is going to be a massive change- one I am unsure how it will be taken. But I have a lot more to talk about than just Beauty. If anything Beauty is now near the bottom of my list of Brain Farts. Im sure on the odd occasion I will chuck in a Beauty Related post, but from now on you can consider this an "It's My life" type of Blog.
Starting today I plan to make my Blog very different. I plan to make Posts directed at: brutally honest advice, entertaining stories on my life (my occasional Paris Hilton brain) and in general keeping you updated in my life journey (who I will eventually become) and so much more.
I'm planing on doing all this whilst keeping my own privacy. After all- once the mystery is gone you have nothing. You can consider this an edited version of my own private diary.
I hope you can enjoy the change I'm bringing and can therefore relate even more with me.
Until Next time,
xox
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